it is not dying, it is not dying [27 Aug 2009|08:52pm] [ music | the beatles - within you without you/ tomorrow never knows ]   post

keep me in mind [19 Apr 2009|07:06am] [ music | keep me in mind - little joy ]   god i love little joy at 7 in the morning or whenever i'm cruising the neighbourhood on my vehicular love machine. they remind me of the strokes when they first started out in 2001, but happier. like the strokes having a perpetual holiday on an island in the sun. ya dig?   post

i want to ride my bicycle. [14 Apr 2009|09:09pm] [ music | pink floyd - bike ] i've got a bike, you can ride it if you like. it's got a basket, a bell that rings and things to make it look good. it's FINALLY mine. (a belated birthday present of sorts?)  hai guys, say hi to the new love of my love. it's huge. i need a basket, a bell and loads of paint and stencils to pimp the fuck out of it. the one thing i really need is a basket. for my bag, a couple of tuna melts, a water bottle and perhaps my cat. i don't really care for a bell. i'll just stare at people until they move. i'm good at that. god i'm so excited my last bicycle was bought from some old uncle shop and died on me within 6 months. that was when i was 12. now, 8 years on, i have my dream bicycle. it's time for an adventure. i want to ride it at like 2 in the morning when there are absolutely no cars on the main road. just the street lamps, shadows and me.   Read (6) post

the coolest kicks in the cave! [12 Apr 2009|02:55am] [ music | joe lean and the jing jang jongs - where do you go ]   dear nylon magazine x nike shoes, i want you in my life. i will save up all my monies and eat nothing but $2.50 chicken rice everyday just so i can have you. i realise and accept the fact that you are probably going to be obscenely priced, but oh love is a funny little thing, and i'm prepared to dip into my emergency stash. i'll be waiting.   love, me.      post

X will mark the place [09 Apr 2009|01:04am] [ music | where i end and you begin - radiohead ]   and i'm sorry for us the dinosaurs roam the earth the sky turns green where i end and you begin i am up in the clouds i am up in the clouds and i can't and i can't come down post

it's a celebration bitches. [30 Mar 2009|04:01am] [ music | stay out of trouble - kings of convenience ]   i'm having fun and we haven't even started celebrating proper. my mother, is simply the best. and no matter how much she annoys me when she tries to impose her personal hang-ups on me, i can't ever deny that she's way too good to me.  honestly.     she deserves one of those 'mother of the year' cups, and then some. i'll probably have to scratch out 'year' and add in 'century' with a zebra permanent marker. post

it's my party, i'll get high if i want to. [25 Mar 2009|01:03am] [ music | brain - N.E.R.D ]       i don't want to turn twenty but i will anyway, so i'm going to have fun. you only turn twenty once. then its on to twenty one and before you know it you're old and irrelevant. not that being relevant was ever an issue in my social agenda.  (cue secondary school memories) these pictures make me think of a perfect birthday. but without my best friends, seriously, it'll be a lost cause. all the balloons, cakes, bicycles, tea parties and hammocks in the world would not suffice. i just want all of them there because i know that all 6 of us are in rather awkward moments in our life and sometimes, all you need is the company of people who love and know you the most to get you back on track. and besides, the girls love any excuse to dress up and prance about.   DON'T PRETEND YOU DON'T LYN. YOU WILL DRESS UP AND LIKE IT. (please, thank you). Read (2) post

lovely package [21 Mar 2009|07:25pm] [ music | crazy - patsy cline ]   my newfound obsession with pretty packaging. i want to walk into a supermarket where all the goods are wrapped like wonky birthday gifts. with little brown tags hanging off the sides with the product price and description. and bows. just because.  yesterday shila, mia, zara and i ambled up into to a musky old bar with old musicians because dhaniah had a spontaneous urge to sing. and so she did. she sang 'close to you' by the carpenters and 'crazy' by patsy cline, backed by a live band she met two seconds before.  i love people like her. the crazy artistic fiends.  they possess some kind of strange moth-to-a-flame attraction. i believe its a mix of their natural talent and sheer insanity.   after that we went off to dance the night away with random hipsters and scenesters who appreciate psychedelic trance. a beautiful end to a beautiful week.   post

betty crocker beware [09 Mar 2009|03:26am] [ music | the beat - mirror in the bathroom ]     baking with the girls tomorrow! we persevere. i'm starting to fall in love this gloomy fucked up weather. it somehow reminds me of eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. i love waking up in a kind of sheer darkness, sometime around 630-7pm, it's as if someone pulled a thin piece of gauze-like fabric over my eyes. these last few days i have been waking up wrapped in the silky sheets that i conveniently took from my sister's room after she left for LA, stumbling down the stairs to cook some hearty pasta and stumbling back up to eat in my room like the messy little hermit that i am.  and its great. that, coupled with chocolate and good online tv, and i'm in heaven. i hope i dont grow up to be a couch potato, living in my parents house, watching judge judy (or whatever else they show on channel 5 these days) and getting drunk on cheap wine.  (as tempting as it sometimes sounds)   Read (1) post

i love you but.. [05 Mar 2009|01:39am] [ music | swallowtail - brian jonestown massacre ]     i see it's hard to be alone in everyway when you hear so much of i give ups in every word they say but we make love forever and nothing fills that space not smashing in my door last night and screaming in my face love transcends all kinds of bullshit. looking at it that way, it really is one of the best and worst things that can ever happen to a human being. or any being for that matter. sometimes i wish it wouldn't. Read (3) post

lovely book covers [04 Mar 2009|07:35pm] [ music | by your side - sade (cottonbelly mix) ] my favourites from The Book Cover Archive.  it provides hours of endless pretty on days like this one; all the umbrellas in london couldn't stop this rain. i dont believe in the sun, my Astronomy will have to be revised. post

look at those clouds [10 Feb 2009|02:14am] [ music | unattainable - little joy ] how would you know if the love of your life passed you by? when everything seems so easy these days, make up break up rinse and repeat, how do you really really know? in the admist of all the name calling and all the "i deserve better" self mantras, and not to mention countless pep talks, does anyone really take the time to sit down and think. what if, despite all the bullshit, he/she is the fucking love of my life? what if the love of your life is a psychopath, a complete bastard with emotional issues that would make sylvia plath blush. what if he's like a hurricane that sweeps everyone else away from you, some people are swept away because they are so frustated with you and some others who are swept away by force, the jealousy of your partner. so then, that just leaves you and him in the eye of the fucking storm, looking at everything you used to have and love spin around you. sure it's calm in the eye of the storm, just the two of you. and nothing else. how bleak. sooner or later, boredom will sink in and you'll just want to be the swirling chaos that you've helped create.  so what if the love of your life is a psychopath, a cheater or a liar. would you still choose him, or someone else you know you'll never be able to love as much or feel as intensely for, but who's a better human being. this whole post has nothing to do with me, sometimes i just sit and worry about other people. Read (4) post

la vie en rose [07 Feb 2009|12:25am] in case i ever have to leave, i want to say i love all of you more than you think. you know who you are. rest in peace yasmeen. you'll be remembered as a beautiful smiling face. i'm so sorry you had to go too soon, but there's a better place, there must be. post

fuck your mini snickers. [31 Jan 2009|01:50am] [ music | yelle - a cause des garcons electro remix ] mini snickers? MINI snickers? they are even smaller than the fun-sized ones. what kind of fuckery is that? snickers should always come in a full bar or more. i had to eat 13 stupid packets of individually wrapped mini snickers before i got my fix. small food portions make me angry. Read (2) post

el scorcho [18 Jan 2009|09:45pm] [ music | lost cause - beck ] - i am so restless i literally peeled all my nail polish off and am now staring at the little bits of burgundy lying on my desk. i seem to have quite a penchant for peeling? especially when i'm nervous. i'm not nervous now though. i'm just waiting for something to happen. something anything possibly maybe. i'm too damn tired to actually start something on my own, i've contracted some kind of terminal lethargy that makes me shrink away from anything too emotional tedious. it also serves as a wall, i think. my bell jar is still going strong. sometimes i listen to beck's 'lost cause' and it reminds me of you. other times it reminds me of myself. i'm not sure, maybe it was both of us. both lost causes fighting for another lost cause. either way that song is gold. i love zombie movies. and zombie arcade games. like house of the dead l and ll and lll and llll. yes, there were many versions. i think its just the geek in me. the same geek who loves weezer, tetris, crossword puzzles, national geographic and clean white shoes that get dirty in 5 minutes flat. oh and apparently, playing tetris after a traumatic incident reduces the symptoms of post-traumatic stress disorder. basically it helps prevent the memory of the event. i'm going to head to the nearest pasar malam and buy one of those old school handheld tetris consoles. i saw it awhile back but i hesitated. never hesitate when it comes to tetris. post

whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat. [11 Jan 2009|10:57pm] [ music | blackface japanese man ] japanese people never fail to amaze me. NEVER. i don't actually understand what in the hell is going on here but basically its a japanese man who has painted his face black and is trying to impersonate louis armstrong *cue the turning over in grave* its so funny how you can hear him struggling with his "l"s and "r"s. but oh well, i guess you know you've arrived when a japanese person takes your work and sort of fucks it up in their own special way! i think i'm going to have trouble sleeping. Read (2) post

may our bodies remain [01 Dec 2008|10:07pm] [ music | public pervert - interpol ] my life used to be lit with warm garden lights with time moving at a glacial pace, every minute stretched out for me to bask in and enjoy, every bassline, every sunset, every conversation was painfully slow and sinfully decadent. everything i went through, i felt. unlike now, where it seems like everything's lit by harsh fluorescent lights, the cheap kind that hurt your eyes when you look directly at them, the kind that bring out every flaw and expose every  blemish. everything moves fast, i can't even stop to feel things these days, it's just touch and go. i just don't know anymore. interpol helps though. post

i'm exhausted, leave me alone [27 Nov 2008|12:11am] [ music | possibly maybe - bjork ]   uncertainly excites me, baby who knows what's going to happen? lottery or car crash or you'll join a cult i've waited till my blood and bones have turned selfish, i seem to repel those i'm attracted to and so i shall be asexual. like an amoeba. post

such a strange numb [24 Nov 2008|12:48am] [ music | minerva - deftones ] you're the same numb when you sing it's over such a strange numb it could bring back peace to the earth if i heard the world was going to end in the most horrific way ever, i'd drop everything i was doing, take all my favourite books and my mp3 player to the botanical gardens or some huge field and just sit there and re-read all my favourite lives, listen to all my favourite people singing songs about the best and worst things that have ever happened to them, the things they did and didnt do. i would light a joint and drown myself in red wine. i'd do everything in my ability, to construct a perfect world around myself. even if it were just for a few days, or hours, or minutes. and if someone tells me i'm wasting my time, i'll just say i'm saving the world as i know it. post

sweet jane [16 Nov 2008|10:14pm] . for centuries marijuana has been used as a self prescribed remedy for the terminal disease known as 'being alive.' post

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